I'm going to try not to be emotional, because I got done writing angsty blogs a while ago, but I've been feeling a lot and nothing lately and I want to try to put them feelings and nots into words.

At the Vancouver Harry and the Potters' show today I told one of them that the band has meant so much to me, especially in high school where I felt like they helped me figure out who I am. Because I am nuts I word vomited it and then after I was like 'whaaat', but now that I think about it more I feel like I can articulate how that happened.

It's pretty much no secret that I love that band. Until I completely surrendered myself to television and video games they were basically all I talked about. It wasn't that they were just a band that sang about Harry Potter, they are a band that sings about the power of love and friendship and sticking it to the man.

When I'd talk about them to people I would get the strangest looks. The thing about the band though is that they are totally okay with singing about Harry Potter. How could you not be okay with it? When I remember that, I feel awesome talking about them, and I feel like I can be okay with doing whatever the hell I want too.

Especially now, when I feel like I'm constantly being judged and criticized by douchey and sexist eyes, I have to remember the lessons of Harry and the Potters, and how happy they made me feel every summer. Their shows would always remind me that I have no reason to be ashamed of the things I do or like, and I've unfortunately lost that attitude. They make me feel like I can kick the judgmental a-holes in the face and just bugger on. They keep me from being sucked into the whirlpool of being lame and fake and insincere, which is difficult. I don't have to become someone else to be happy, and I think I'm just starting to realize that, thanks to the help of Harry and the Potters. I gotta do the things I love, and ignore everything else.

I think this summer will be different.